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Boredom
Boredom! I think my mind is in a crummy mood. I am not entertaining it. I am not in deep spiritual study. No self importance. Nothing grandiose. Being useless. I listen to my ego run on and on. I would rather be in rapture, but God hasn't given me this "specialness". No need to meditate to hear the crap. I hear my ego yammering away about something that happened this morning which didn’t please it. I have foolishly left my mind unoccupied and it is going crazy.
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I stand up and move away from the Free Cell game. OK, I admit it. I am bored. What should I do? Over eat? Keep searching the internet for someone to relate to? It is too nasty outside to even consider outside chores. I make tea and ask Someone for help, “Holy Spirit, what should I be doing?” I take the cup of tea and sit down at my kitchen table, looking outside.
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I look down to my ACIM Text at the next line after I left off this morning: “Miracles are healing because they supply a lack; they are performed by those who temporarily have more by those who temporarily have less” (1.I.8). It strikes me that boredom is a lack. It strikes me that some non-temporal being could supply my temporary lack. Suddenly I am filled with peace.
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No really! Wow! Suddenly, I don’t have to do anything. I can relax. I am free to sit and do nothing, including refrain from attacking humanity with my thoughts; because I have peace. I was given a consciousness of peace. I am peaceful. That is the miracle perception change I received: peace.
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What happens to the human who allows themselves to be completely at peace? I’ll tell you. The universe known by the ego disappears. It doesn’t matter anymore. The ego universe has lost its power because that human has no needs in the peaceful consciousness. For this period of time spent in peace, however brief or long, I am not filling any of my ego’s insatiable needs; especially the ego need to fire back at others.
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“Be still and know God.” Who actually does this? Do we try it for more than 30 seconds? If we do try it, do we think we knew God? If we do try it, don’t we keep it a secret so no one will criticize us for not having a life? My consciousness was healed from war to peace by a miracle supplied from Something greater than myself. This miracle of a peaceful consciousness seems like it could be “knowing-God.”
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Yes, the ego attack thoughts keep coming back, but I do not give them a home. Having experienced peace, I am now able to choose peace. Peace is mine for the choosing all the time, every time; if I but maintain conscious responsibility for my ego thoughts. Peace becomes my habit instead of war. This too is a miracle. This choice is a loving thing to practice. It is the ultimate loving act of my life; giving up my self to peace.
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And so I continue to sit and do nothing, pure existence…choosing peace again…and again…and again…etc.
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I stand up and move away from the Free Cell game. OK, I admit it. I am bored. What should I do? Over eat? Keep searching the internet for someone to relate to? It is too nasty outside to even consider outside chores. I make tea and ask Someone for help, “Holy Spirit, what should I be doing?” I take the cup of tea and sit down at my kitchen table, looking outside.
.
I look down to my ACIM Text at the next line after I left off this morning: “Miracles are healing because they supply a lack; they are performed by those who temporarily have more by those who temporarily have less” (1.I.8). It strikes me that boredom is a lack. It strikes me that some non-temporal being could supply my temporary lack. Suddenly I am filled with peace.
.
No really! Wow! Suddenly, I don’t have to do anything. I can relax. I am free to sit and do nothing, including refrain from attacking humanity with my thoughts; because I have peace. I was given a consciousness of peace. I am peaceful. That is the miracle perception change I received: peace.
.
What happens to the human who allows themselves to be completely at peace? I’ll tell you. The universe known by the ego disappears. It doesn’t matter anymore. The ego universe has lost its power because that human has no needs in the peaceful consciousness. For this period of time spent in peace, however brief or long, I am not filling any of my ego’s insatiable needs; especially the ego need to fire back at others.
.
“Be still and know God.” Who actually does this? Do we try it for more than 30 seconds? If we do try it, do we think we knew God? If we do try it, don’t we keep it a secret so no one will criticize us for not having a life? My consciousness was healed from war to peace by a miracle supplied from Something greater than myself. This miracle of a peaceful consciousness seems like it could be “knowing-God.”
.
Yes, the ego attack thoughts keep coming back, but I do not give them a home. Having experienced peace, I am now able to choose peace. Peace is mine for the choosing all the time, every time; if I but maintain conscious responsibility for my ego thoughts. Peace becomes my habit instead of war. This too is a miracle. This choice is a loving thing to practice. It is the ultimate loving act of my life; giving up my self to peace.
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And so I continue to sit and do nothing, pure existence…choosing peace again…and again…and again…etc.
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